I have also been a type II diabetic for at least 18 years. My sugars are still uncontrolled and sometimes I am like you and get tired of trying and eat the wrong foods. Sometimes you have to have something good. I have found a program on the internet called my diabetes home. It lets you enter your blood sugars, doctors, meds, and doctor visits. I have found it very forthcoming as it also tells you your A1 c by your readings. It lets you know when you are having the most problems and I am hoping that it will encourage me to do better in taking care of my diabetes. I have neuropathy in my hands, feet and arms and it is very painful. It has also led to NASH and then to cirrhosis of the liver. So, if I can encourage you in any way to try to control your diabetes then I would be very happy. Please go to: http://www.mydiabeteshome.com and give it a try. Good luck in the future with your diabetes. Molly B 1968