Great statement! I torment myself over this theory on a daily basis. I say there is a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other.

The devil says...opiods are evil, harmful and can cause horrible long-term side effects. The angel says...but they give you relief from your pain when nothing else does, allow you to have minimal normalcy and be able to get through moments pain free to enjoy with your family.

It's constant torment of what's right and whats wrong. My daily pains and mental draining are also not healthy.

I will continue my search for alternatives that I can afford to get the most relief for my pain but in the meantime, I'm choosing my battles.

I would like to be proactive in having liver testing or anything that I can do to help myself from long term use.

My son works for Regeneron Pharmeceuticles and they continue to work on finding a non-opiod pain reliever.

Until then, I can only speak to what I need today and that is hydrocodone. I'm so sick of fighting with myself!

Rachel