Depression is hard. I have depression too. Severe at times. It always a juggling act with meds, side effects. Make sure you have a support group. This helps but you need in person connection too. If there's a NAMI in your area try that. Also have a safety plan. I recommend CBT and DBT therapy groups. Find activities and plan activities once a week with others. I know feeling hopeless is very difficult. I've been there. Some days I had no reason to get out of bed. Maybe keep a depression journal. Take action before you're too depressed. I'm sorry you're going through a hard time. Be kind to yourself.