@contentandwell , sorry for not replying sooner! I've had a rough week.
I actually just cancelled my gym membership a few weeks ago! I haven't been able to go in over a year, so I had to cut it loose. My problem is that any physical activity makes me overheat, no matter what temperature it is. I've lost a job doing night stocking in the dairy cooler at WalMart because I was getting sick, dripping with sweat in a 34 degree walk-in, putting milk jugs on the shelf.

I have been cutting way back on how much I eat for the past 2 years. I don't count calories, but I am doing good on portion control lately. I seriously eat half the amount i used to eat, say, 5 years ago. Crazy thing is, I gained weight ever since I started eating less! I wish I could try an intermittent fasting diet, but I get severe hypoglycemic symptoms when I go too long without eating. I've used a glucose monitor and had tests done, and my blood sugar is always normal, but if I go too long without food (5+ hours), I feel a hard crash and I get REALLY sick.

I had to quit my fun, well-paying job as a bartender because of my condition, and had to resort to an entry level office job, so now I am way less active than before, and making half the money I used to. Even in this nice, air-conditioned building, I'm wearing shorts and a t-shirt, still uncomfortably warm, while everyone else here are wearing jackets at their desks!

Man, it just sounds like I have excuse after excuse. It just all seems so hopeless, though. And not knowing what's wrong is making me go crazy. It's like, seems like there's nothing wrong with me, nothing can be proven, so is this all in my head? I often question reality because of all this.

Also, my MRI head scan is scheduled for today, and I guess my doctor is just going to see if it looks normal. He said "who knows? What if we find a mass that could be pushing on something?". I mean, we both think that's highly unlikely, but I really have nothing else to go off of, so we might as well scan my brain to check it off the list.

I can imagine how much of a relief it must have been for you to finally find out about your cirrhosis. At least you now have a reason for what's happening. That's all I want right now... a reason. There is no reason for this. If I was told my condition is happening from a brain tumor, but it's terminal and I have 1 week to live, hell, I'd be fine with that, just because at least now I would know!

Well, I have to get back to work. Thanks for keeping in touch!

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