I keep trying to make positive changes. I reach out to others and end up being used. Just cannot take the trying and getting no where. When things get this way the only thing I can do is try to get myself calmed down. I love people. I enjoy them until they want me to do things for them all the time. I am at the point in my life I will NOT enable others. I am humiliated when I ask for help. I have been referred to a new primary care as the one I was seeing is leaving and has referred me to the new one that has been hired. She is internal medicine. I hope I can understand her English. So stressed and in extreme pain trying to live in a normal world. I have made connections here.