Ward to a new independent outlook on life. Need to get roommate out and try getting along with just me and karma, my wonderful dog. My Dr. And I are looking into vns. Only med that worked was dilantin, that was for the first 4 yrs of my disability. Haven't had full control since then. Will never drive again, it's been 15yrs since I've been on the road. I lost a wonderful job for my inability to drive. My wife had to start working and is doing wonderful job with kids. Missing her a lot. Missing my kids a lot. All I can do is live 1 day at a time and see positive things I have. I'm just getting knocked down everytime I start to get up. Will get up and will make new friends and be sure to keep relationship with my 4kids and my wife who I really love. It's put a lot on her threw the years. Going to try getting into mayo clinic. It would be nice to hear second opinion and possibly get a better handle on this. Seeing theripest today, always puts a positive outlook on my life. Thank you for words of wisdom. David W.