becsbuddy.. thank you for seeing the post for the positive message... I am trying to live by this as my daughter gets very upset when she thinks I am giving in to the disease and not seeing hope, I too have my bad days and think of dying to young if at all.. it just isn't fair for me to put that on others who had nothing to do with my getting the cancer in the first place... she needs to see my strength in order for her to have strength... I know how much it upsets her since she already lost her Dad to cancer 6 years ago..