@cwm1 I hope you been walking nonstop? I sure was wandering like a lost soul after my double trouble cancer diagnosis. I can relate to the crying, plus I was hyperventilating with the crying. Which I had never hyperventilated before in my life.

I have no siblings or parents left. Just a husband and 2 sons. My sons do not live near me at all..

Have you looked into the Livestrong program at all? They have people that help guide you through the double trouble nightmare maze you are dealing with. They also have a free 12 week YMCA workout program to help you keep your mind distracted with fitness trainers.
They helped me a lot when i could barely get out of bed. I used to think what for? The exercise program was a nice healthy distraction. Another thing I did was meet with a dietitian to help work out a nutritional plan to help focus on. Foods that help starve off Cecum cancer and Follicular Lymphoma.

You need to Focus on you right now. Your body needs you strong and focused to heal yourself.
Take the time to block out your stresses and regroup your strengths to heal.
Can you please let us know how your Dr visit goes on 7/25?

I been bouncing on, and off so I will watch for your post.
Praying for the best for you..
Jackie
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