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Facing Cancer Recurrence, PTSD & Acknowledging Mental Health
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Am such a newbie at all this I am not sure this si where my post should be. In march of 2019 had a VATS--right lobe removal-- for a stage 1 lung cancer spot. Am doing well and since it was so small and caught early with no spread, my oncologist said we will wait until September for a CT. scan. That sounded great. I'm now thinking truly how soon really the CT scan will come in September and if I let myself, I start worrying about the "what ifs." Truth be told, I worry about recurrence, but often times try and NOT think about it. However, it looms in the back of my mind. I know that should cancer be found again, Iw ill deal with it, but the fear of it does NOT go away. Just wondering how others handle this sort of thing. Thank you all for your help.
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You are beautiful. I guess in answer to your question, I live with my “new normal”. Every six months a glimpse into a mystery, hoping there’s no new sign of things developing, being ready to deal with whatever the outcome. But thankful there are oncologists and learning/teaching/research facilities ready to catch “it” before it goes too far. And thankful for blogs such as this which actually was, for me, the first step to a life-saving journey. This is where I first learned of the doctors at Mayo Clinic that diagnosed and surgically removed my Carcinoid Cancer. So, thank you to the brave survivors who share their stories in this way.
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@alamogal635- Good morning. Oh boy do I know what you mean! lol. Although I feel great I'm still dreading my CT scan this Tuesday. After hearing that I have cancer 4 times I'm still never ready to hear it again. All I can say is that you get use to it- the dread, the heart palpitations, the night mares, the cold sweats...And you have to accept that it might come back and that you might have to go "through it all again". That doesn't make it easier, just more familiar. I think that I finally accepted it with my last one, almost 2 years ago. I also know that there are options and always new treatments.
The cancer world isn't any easy one. It's riddled with uncertainty, fear and looking over your shoulder. It's like having a bad dream follow you around, but with a truth attached to it. You can either chose to give yourself options in dealing with it, like you have, or deny it, like I did for quite a while. Does this make sense?.