@merpreb Thank you for the above response. It does help. I am learning to take things a day at a time--really. What an upcoming T scan says this coming June is nothing I can control, so I try to just let it go--sort fo like putting it into a blood and proof off it goes. it isn't easy. Also, I recently found out that there is shame connected with lung cancer--at lest fro me. I was a smoker--smoke from age 18 until 45. I smoke at least two packs a day. Gave it up and felt a whole lot better. When I tell someone about my lung cancer and surgery, I sense a feeling of shame. It really doesn't make sense. However, knowing what I do about psychology, I can see where a lot of this would have come from past childhood indoctrination with being shamed. I will deal with this and will seek professional help for this. I'm by nature a loner, but do try and get out. Must MAKE myself go out more and socialize--church at least. Anyway, I read and reread your post and find it really uplifting and helpful. Thank you.