@merpreb Found yesterday in the whole night that I was really feeling worried, apprehensive, and flat out frightened. It is for now a kind of mild PTSD. I take generic Prozac for depression andI guess this helps, but for some reason the doubts of "what ifs" are starting to creep in. Also as mentioned in another post of mine, I had the achy rib soreness that seems to be part of the post surgery recovery. It felt like a big lump of ribs on the right side that simply ached no matter what I did, or what pain pills I took. So, I am not anywhere near Little Miss Sunshine as I go through the healing process. Some days I worry about what might go wrong with the first post surgery CT scan, what if the surgery was not sufficient--have all the path reports and the detailed report from my kind surgeon. All reads well and no one on the medical team seems overly concerned, but I seem to lack a basic trust that I'm being told everything. That is purely conjecture on my part. I get kind of OCD about wondering all of the what ifs and that is not healthy for mind, or body. Will see my oncologist week after next and see if he knows of a local group that meets where these topics can be discussed in a safe environment. Also, am thinking that maybe a yoga class that is gentle and easy would be a good idea for getting back more motion. So, not to complain, but everything is never just wonderful--I do have my moments--many of them. There are few people except for this site with whom I can speak my mind and am learning to do that. Just wanted to let all know here that I am a cancer survivor who hopes and prays the future will be okay. I try to live each day as it comes, but it isn't easy. I find lots of strength in this group. Thank you all.