Appreciate you ability to be so honest about all your feelings and experiences during your ordeal with cancer. I pick up helpful bits and pieces—this my first experience with VATS. So many who have not had our trials and tribulations seem to think we can bounce back in no time. You make it clear that this is not so. You are so right in this. Also the lingering fear of recurrence is always there. Sometimes it lurks beneath the surface and sometime it is right there at the surface. I go from optimist to,pessimist several times a day. I cannot imagine having the number of treatments that yiu’ve Had and not completely breaking with reality! I admire your strength and honesty. God bless you for your blog and for just being You!