None of this is easy... but I think you have to just go about the business of living life because nobody knows when your number will be up. I was diagnosed in October 2018 and since then lost a classmate's husband who just went in for knee surgery, was at home healing and doing well then developed a blood clot and did not wake. That's it, he's gone. Another lady that my daughter knows was fine Christmas day and then had a massive heart attack the day after and she's gone..that's it. We sort of have a warning that we are closer to deaths door but nobody's opened the door yet so just keep on living till they do.