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Reunion With Brother After Years (Severe Anxiety)

Depression & Anxiety | Last Active: Jan 16, 2019 | Replies (50)
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@lisalucier

Hi, @yangedd - I am so sorry to hear that things did not go to plan and that you didn't come face to face in a reunion with your brother. I can imagine that would indeed feel devastating. From what you said before it sounded like you had been filled with hope about this relationship and the reunion. It's completely okay that you were not in a place to interact with anyone before. Good to hear from you now, though.

Spending a holiday alone is really hard.

I'm glad your medical team has been with you through this and that you are going back for another visit.

Another discussion you might be interested in looking at and participating on Connect is this one on self harm https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/selfharm.

You mentioned being isolated at the moment. You'd also talked about your partner at one time, and your friend Freda. Are either of them or someone else available at this time to help you walk through this?

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EdCork | @yangedd | Jan 1, 2019

Hi @lisalucier and thanks for the reply.

I'm afraid that myself and Freda are no longer friends as I lashed out dramatically and the friendship ended in a highly charged confrontation.

The few people that I have had contact with I seemed to lash out at in anger at. I was furious with everyone for the past two weeks.

I have decided that I no longer want any contact with anyone from my hometown and have deleted Facebook and Messenger from my phone as not to communicate with them.

I got into an argument with a few of them and in my anger delivered a lot of home truths to them, none of which I am sorry about in fact because I feel that the hypocrisy among all of those people is rife.

I want to live my life alone from now on because I absolutely refuse to let anyone hurt me ever again. I'm going to shield myself from all the hurt and pain that people can inflict on me.

I'm even thinking of going very, very far away from Ireland and forgetting all about the so called family and friends that I no longer want to know.

I did keep in contact with my MHT yes, but only because they would have been breathing down my neck otherwise.

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