I understand how you feel. I fought for many years a good fight with anxiety and depression. I may still be in the same category but I am working my way out through prayers for fast healing of my brain AVM. I did go for a treatment and with seizure meds. I was given anxiety meds but I quit cold turkey because my local doctor said it was addictive. Sad thing, this AVM is located in my emotions area so it makes it even more challenging to overcome anxiety and having no emotional support or therapy. What helped was spending time reading our Heavenly Father's words and praying, not just once a day but everyday and throughout the day. I became more focused and gained the faith that everything will be fine and so to trust in Him and the work done during the treatment. I broke hearts to how i became so blunt because I had low level of patient to think things thru. I cry all the time how i was able to get the treatment because if I lived where i am without traveling, I could have not seen the days of my children now. I fail most of the time to take good care of them and it frustrates me because it includes my lack of appetite and sleep. I have 3 toddlers of ages 6, 5, and 2; all boys. I'm still struggling but anxiety and depression is nothing compared to the beginning of it. So to let you know, you are not alone in this journey. I would like to know how you are doing since the date of your post. If you are not a Christian, it's fine with me, we don't need to talk about faith in God. We can just chat or just have a listening ear in the pacific ocean.