I should have known. He'd been married before a few times and always to women who had teenaged daughters. He had been a HS coach who had to quit. Truth was that he'd been fired because of raping a girl over a long period of time and molesting other girls, but in his town the church, the police, and his friends protected him and threw the victims under the bus so the investigation was quashed and he didn't have a record. But, you are right, I have been poisoning myself out of shame and guilt, and anger too, for too many years. It's time to heal and look to the future instead of live in the past. I'm going for a heart-healthy hike here in a few minutes. Beautiful day. That helps.