In thinking about self forgiveness-when others cannot forgive me it is hard to forgive myself. Grateful I am learning to not dwell on all of my failures. I still get sucked into the dark pit. Not a happy place.
This thread is about gratitude and I have much to be grateful for and at times stray from the being grateful. I believe we all do and doubtful anyone can be grateful 24/7.
We are all trying and this is what matters. Trudging onward!!!!

@catmom777 I'm sorry your unable to forgive yourself it does take alot of work on your part Have you gone to a stranger like counselor or minister this helped me at the time but in the end it is your learning to let it go I wish you could you will feel much better

@catmom777- I'm so sorry that this has happened in your family. It's very very difficult to move on when you know that you hurt someone you love. And, unfortunately some things can't always be put in a drawer and never opened. You said that your daughter has forgiven you. How long ago did this "reconciliation" happen? Have you made amends? By this I mean have you attempted to try, in your own way, to makeup for what you did to her? How can you help make her life better? Would she allow this? Has she allowed you into her life enough that you can visit or see your grand kids? I really don't know if we can forgive ourselves, I think that it's more than the word forgive. Maybe it's acceptance of what you did, real acceptance and knowing that you can't undo the past. You can't exonerate yourself but feeling guilty about your mistake won't solve it either. So what do you think that your next move will be to start letting your guilt and anger go?