@merpreb Hahaha. 6 month wellness visit with primary today. No idea which NP, MD, PA or whatever I will see. So stressful. Potlucks in medical health stresses me. Their laptop infuriates me. Their guide to keeping me healthy and watching the minutes tick by. When I see their hand reach toward the laptop lid I know time is up. The future now present. Argh. Dreading it. Need to work on my attitude. Mouse in a maze in search of morsel of cheese. Time to go soak my head. I am worth something.

One thing I used to do when I was working and probably need more now, is to save thank you notes, print out those emails of appreciation or acknowledgement of accomplishments and put them in a book or large envelope or box. When you feel that you're not accomplishing enough, or really dark days like I sometimes have when I question my current or future value, take that box out and remind yourself that you are of value and accomplish goals. Even small ones add up.
I'm also a list maker. It focuses me and when I mark something off I can see an accomplishment.

@merpreb If you find a way to stop being harsh on yourself, please let me know. It's a curse that many of us have I think.
JK