Hi Colleen
Thank you for your kind response & no need to make any apology on behalf of people, we are all going through a very trying time.
I reacted mainly as you say out of sheer frustration & despair for my predicament so I should be apologising.
My frustration is that I am unable to do anything to help myself & whilst there is a small chance that another procedure might work it's very unlikely as I explained. The feelings of emptiness & hopelessness are so strong as I am constantly thinking about my situation all the time I am awake, mainly because of my on going symptoms & I guess I just cannot accept that I might be like this for the rest of my life leading to me having the awful thoughts of ending it all.
Your question about my consultant contacting the Mayo clinic is interesting as I have been told that they have contacted specialists in Oesophageal issues around the world but with no real luck apart from being notified about the Jump great procedure.
I am not sure how I go about contacting the Mayo clinic perhaps you can please provide me with some idea of how to do this thanks.