I understand how challenging it can be, @anxious4nothing. I have had 3 surgeries of the upper digestive tract (duodenal bulb) for a rare form of malignancy, neuroendocrine tumors. Each time I've faced surgery I've felt that the experience was way beyond my abilities to cope, but I've learned to ask and receive help in much of my decision making and the support has given me confidence to push on.

I hope that you find that same support experience!

Many blessings to you, @anxious4nothing