I know how you feel. My pain is constant. Sometimes I wait to take a pill and then struggle to get thru the 20 minutes to relief. What a life. I can no longer care for my home. I am moving to Independent living. I will live with my pain with a clean house and no more cooking. All I wanted was relief from my pain and instead my life as I knew it is over. At this point and with the years I gave my government, I can honestly say we are not longer free but dictated to. I am old enough to have what I want and die without pain. I will welcome hospice.