@parus Just come to the table, you don't need to bring anything but yourself. We accept you no matter how poorly you met be feeling that day or the hour. Depression and pain certainly do go hand-in-hand. And it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel as being daylight and not an oncoming train. Perhaps if you try doing something that has brought you pleasure in the past, baking for your neighbors or drawing or writing or having your grandson over for a day. It sounds like his giggles & smiles have always been a positive balm for you. Don't let these so-called professionals get you down! You're so much stronger than that!
Ginger