@parus The first thing I thought was, "Oh honey!", then that I just wanted to give you a big hug. You are not alone. Everyone experiences life differently and there are always going to be those that have no point of reference and don't understand. Do you have someone to talk to when it gets bad? Someone who will listen and not judge, just support you? I'm wishing you peace for today. That you can relax and know there are people who understand and care like the people here. Lyn