Good morning Parus- You make perfect sense! I had to look more at your question of PTSD and depression (I threw in anxiety too, just because). I think that there is never just one trigger, that would be too easy! I call these bothersome, unexplained uncomfortable feelings "free floating anxieties". The world is a tough one without the world being topsy turvy - but it is right now. I also find that our country has become dangerous and that makes me very anxious. I am not allowed to be political, so please forgive me for not going further with this. After all that you've been through Parus I'm not at all surprised that you have volatile moments, and they must be miserable feelings, ones we don't want to face continuously. But sometimes we have to because they need to run their course. I think that forgetting the past is criminal because it makes us what we are today. And to be honest, I really don't think that anyone can.You have grown so much in just the short time that I have come to know you. You know, sometimes things are not right and it's ok to be angry at them. I'm not talking about screaming or punching someone but showing that they have done you wrong! Why not? You are human and have feelings. I think that it's wrong sometimes to just walk away when your integrity is being questioned like your two neighbors did to you.
I like this: https://www.anxietycanada.com/adults/ptsd