@merpreb Thank you for sharing your writing of PTSD. I find myself destroying personal possessions and making numerous trips to the dumpster trying to rid myself of all parts of me. I had not a clue what had gotten into me. I still get into these places where the past pummels. I have done a lot of cleansing in this manner. Had beautiful collections of books-yes, they are gone. Personal artwork, art supplies, the list could go on. I can understand so clearly your words that have described PTSD so vividly. I go off of the radar completely. I have found that I can come to this community as I can do so in the safety of my own home. I have learned many things here about keeping myself safe. I have a little grandson that loves his grandma and I hear his little voice I know I cannot let him done because of days long gone now and yet so vivid at times.
When the PTSD takes hold it is NOT simply telling myself I am no longer there. Would that it were so easy.
Could feel your pain as I have been there and still return as those triggers are there. Some I am not aware of. I am still learning. Thanks again for helping me realize I am not losing my mind.