Ronnie I wrote to you earlier this week. I am mainly on the MAC forum but have had horrid back issues since 1976 after my second child. (Spondylolithesis) Now I have several other issues that developed over time. I want to address your addiction concerns. Do you have addiction in your genes? Do you have an addictive personality? My PHD brother had 17 years of serious drug abuse! Yet, I can have a drink or take a pill without becoming addicted. I even have a card to use marijuana but haven’t tried it. And I don’t drink. I do use tramadol for chronic pain which at least takes the edge off. I think because you are so worried about addiction you won’t become addicted. From my friends who have had a fusion I have learned that it can take up to a year for a full recovery! Rest in that thought and tread lightly. Be patient with yourself. Take whatever pills are necessary to help ease the pain. Rule of thumb is to take a pain pill before the pain is too much. Your doctor has probably told you that. I think many people have addictive personalities. That coupled with a genetic propensity for addiction makes for a precarious situation. I think because your doctor is keeping an eye on you is very comforting. I think you are finding that the beginning of your recovery is very “bumpy.” It will get better. Take the pain meds! My motto has always been, “I don’t mind pain - as long as it doesn’t hurt!” Wishing you peace of mind and less pain. (Irene)