@kimmym – can you speak with your primary care Dr for a referral? They may know someone who they have experience with. Call your local mental health association for a referral, and compare your insurance with the list of names they give you. If you are working, and your employer has an EAP program (Employee Assistance Program, all confidential), ask them.
Thank you for reaching out, and realizing you need to seek help to get through your travails. That is a big first step. I speak from experience!