Connect
← Return to Adults On The Autism Spectrum
Discussion
Comment receiving replies
@mamacita I have read your posts here on the situation with the caregiver support meeting and their denial of your wisdom. While I cannot truly speak for them, it sounds to me that someone or some members felt uncomfortable with the positivity and problem solving you could bring to the table, that it would take some of the shining light away from them. They felt jealous and suddenly threatened. The best way to stop that was to eliminate the threat [you, in this case]. It hurts, and hurts mightily, that you are not able to give of yourself to a group/situation from which you expect nothing except the opportunity to help make a difference. As auties, we feel so deeply. Here we all are, right by your side, and boosting you up, letting you know you're important to us.
Ginger
Replies to "@mamacita I have read your posts here on the situation with the caregiver support meeting and..."
Connect
@gingerw , you hit the nail on the head. I try to contain myself. But at the same time I follow orders from a boss who believes we should share his love and light, not being concerned about the consequences. That He will take care of the results.
I had no idea that my attempt at just being a part of a group would result in such a downward spiral.
If the ones who felt threatened by my positivity only knew where my help came from, they would see that my joy came ftom surviving years of living in darkness.
When one has been set free from captivity, gratitude is evident. I suppose that frightens some. And puzzles the others.
If I had just not been so friendly, or nice, or hopeful, or positive, or .....
But then, if I had done that, I would not have been myself. I would have been what we Auties call masking. Pretending to be someone we are not just to get along. To "pass" as Neurotypical.
I'm too old for that. But I have to figure out how to prevent this same kind of thing from happening in the future.
Duct tape. That's it.Cheaper than wiring my jaws shut.
Oy vey. On a lighter note. Anyone read Do Less? I hear it's really a good book. Maybe I should take its advice!
Love and light,
Mamacita Jane