@@@ Hello All,
I am doing well all considering. The head shudders from the detox of effexor are off the hook today. I am down to 25 daily. I cut in half and try to make it on 12.5. Struggling today. Been walking 2 to 4 miles daily. That usually helps with the depression for a while but it usually returns. Also continuing the MCT oil. On the fence whether it helps or not? In a nut shell, I am depressed and struggling not to be. I am not sure what I am supposed to do? I need to sell my house and move where I don't feel threatened. I can not live there if BF is around. I don't trust him or any intentions he may have. I am still convinced he is a psycho with harmful tendencies. He has so much anger bottled up inside him it is scary. I feel for anyone he gets involved with. I do know he wouldn't physically harm his children.He did find out that His ex wife( well not ex they have been seperated for 4 years now), has been abusing the middle daughter. She is seeking help at school with a counselor. Its hard not to listen when he wants to talk, we were friends for a very long time. I know I need to cut ties totally but the youngest daughter who lived with me stays in touch. She is very sweet and so innocent. I can't turn my back on her. She is an innocent child. It is very painful though as the tears roll down as I type. Why does life have to be so difficult?
On a positive note I am spending a lot more time with my 3 year old granddaughter. She soothes my heart and soul. Such a sweet little munchkin. Love her to pieces. Thats about it for now Thanks for your thoughts. I am hanging in there. I will make it through this also.
As always, pouring my thoughts to all of you is so helpful. Thanks for listening.