@@@Oh Dear, Sometimes there is no explanation for things... BF mom just had a stroke. He is on his way 1.5 hrs away. I am here with his daughter. I am hoping this ends better than I expect She is the only semi sane relative he has. I am going to explain to her not in so many words I will be leaving this time for sure. She can visit, she is going to want to see our puppy. She will be coming with me. Dad and her can stay in the house until they find somewhere to live. This is extremely complicated. We work together also. I can't even begin to figure out all of this. Or even think about it. He calls me a"runner". Well buddy I have good reason to run and should have the first time I threatened to do so.
Only then will I come back and proceed to sell this place and get the heck away from this area entirely.
I will be here with his daughter until he returns. Could be several hours. I am lining up a rental car to pick me up in the morning. He has my truck, he can keep until I am away and safe. I am watching my back..

This seems really insignificant incident this afternoon while picking up his daughter but maybe not?? I saw a blue jay bullying a circle of little birds, I made the comment about the blue jay being a bully. BF proceeds to ask "Are you the little birds or the bully?" "You don't even know do you" Then we almost ran in the back of someone. The guy is pissed at BF and staring. All BF can do is shout "I am a good person you F with me I'm coming after you. You will pay" Why am I only now reading and hearing through all these phrases now? He has been like this.... It's like my eyes just opened a few days ago.
Yes, my husband may be here steering me in the right direction... I know he loved me. As I did him, He was a good man.,He always called me naive and would say "You can't help everybody, you cant save the world." I get the message now?? Really? Talk about a delayed reaction. Geez, I have to smile or lose it.....God Love Him!

I called my doctor to lengthen the taper. I have been taking half of the 25 mg. every other day. So I am 25mg 12.5mg then 25mg...... so on. .I need to keep this straight head right now. I also take hemp oil, the real is not legal here. It seems to be helping along with the vitamins. I may need something more during all this. Hopefully not. I will keep posted. Trying to stay as strong and level headed as I can.

Thank You, Thank You