I appreciate your very honest post, @mjsmimi. It sounds like you need some outside help, someone you can talk to outside of your family. Perhaps a professional counselor, pastor, church friend or other type of support community. You will need help so that you can determine your best course of action.

I would like to invite @gingerw and @gailb to this discussion as well.

I look forward to hearing what steps you will take in order to help yourself.

Dear @mjsmimi, forgive me. I have had surgery and it has taken me quite some time to get to the point I can really spend the time I need to on here.

Thank you so much for sharing your situation. At the very least it sounds to me like your partner could really benefit from some counselling. However. he may be opposed to attending such meetings if he believes you think he is the one at fault

It is terribly hard to live in a situation when the one you love makes you afraid for your very existance. I fear that your safety is at great risk. You haven't intimated that he is prone to violence. That is good. Unfortunately, when someone is so jealous and protective, and looking around every corner to catch you in a cheating situation......well, you know the rest.

I am sorry, but I fear your safety is at great risk. Common practice in these situations is to have a bag packed with only essentials, act normally, but have a plan of escape. When he is at work, perhaps. Or out with friends.

I cannot tell you what to do, but I can only share with you my legitimate concerns for your life. You may have real, true feelings for him. But to protect your life, you may have to love him from a distance.

Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you as you seek clarity and wisdom for your situation. And for healing for him, that he would reach out for the help he meeds.

Godspeed, my friend