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Mamacita, here.
How are you? I hope you are well and prospering here at the beginning of a new season. Leaves have been falling for some time now, here in the South, where I live. The other day we had 90 degree weather, though. And it will go up and down until likely Thanksgiving, or even later. Once, perhaps even three or four times, we have had weather so hot that we would wear shorts and a tee shirt for Turkey Day.
I tell everyone who will listen that we are turning into Florida. More and more I see Elephants Ears, Ferns, and Palm Trees in the small North Alabama town I live in. Thriving, beautiful, and totally appropriate. Living things, yet not human. All needing air, sunlight, water, and food.
As Auties, what do we need to thrive? Going to check back with you. Where do you think you are on this journey? Are there points of similarity that we can agree on? Hope I hear back from you!
Adios,
Mamacita
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Hello,
I just saw your post as I am poring my thoughts and fears down on paper. Ironically.
I am in a really bad spot here or so I think? I don't know what to think? MY BF has me thinking I am nuts and losing it because I don't do things his way. everything from the way I talk to the way I come to bed. I don't know what way to turn. I think he has finally done it and made me nuts like his ex wife. I am down to 12.5 on my effexor. Is my brain withdrawing and thinking weird shit or his he right? He is a King and can read people and feel the presence of passed people and is reading there messages that tell him I am a psycho. He really thinks i have taken notes on what he went through with his ex wife and purposely and repeated to hurt him?? I am so confused right now. I am fighting to keep things together. All I want is to spend time with my granddaughter and feel normal. I am not doing anything wrong. Every trip is a problem He thinks I am on my way to have an affair on my way there with whomever he decides it is this time. I have never had an affair on him. He just won't get it. He will think its the neighbor one day the next neighbor down the next. and so on. He is driving me nuts...I don't know why I love this man. At this point I cant stand him...
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@mamacita Hope you are feeling better as every few days pass. You pose an interesting question, what we need as aunties to thrive and survive. I believe it is highly individualized, just as we all are. For myself, space and time alone to recharge and be quiet. An understanding spouse [sometimes he slips]. Something that I can turn to, to focus on when too stimulated. Remembering to be kind to myself. Knowing that each day I am doing the best possible that day.
Ginger