I also had one of those experiences...not as bad as yours, probably...in fact I had several weird experiences. Talking never heloped me. I( really need some help and am exhausted. I am keeping to myself as a hermit .am also a hoarder. I a, at wits end.

@mattie Another "pretty much" hermit here. Don't hoard as I am too old and don't want to leave a mess for someone else when I can no longer care for things. Keeping things simple. Wit's end is uncomfortable for many of us.

Dear@mattie, Recovering hoarder here! I have so much stuff. But I have been in the process of getting rid of things for quite some time now. If it is really hard to let go off, I take a picture of it. Or, if it is something that continues to bring me joy, I keep it. Hoarding can spring from depression, and it can lead to depression. I don't know about you, but I have plenty of reasons to get depressed without hoarding.
Some of the things you collect might be sold for some extra cash. My hope is that you come back here again and again. I hope that you feel that you are not alone and that you will get help. We are all here for you. No judgement, just lots of love, encouragement, and hope. We are indeed better together. Light and love, MamacitaJane

@parus The marigolds are beautiful! One of my favorite flowers....Teresa

@parus

I said before that I relate to your experiences very strongly. We are different in many ways, but there is a core of recognition in me when I read your posts.

I wish I was able to paint and draw as you do; your artwork is masterful. I have put off doing my artwork and photography for decades, thinking I would do it when I retired. However now I realize my talent has been dormant so long that I'm very judgemental about anything I do. I am afraid to be disappointed in my own work. I think I just need to keep doing it and practicing, but I'm stuck right now. I just developed a huge "floater" in my left eye. I had it checked by my opthomologist and he thinks it's just normal aging, but he wants to see me again in 2 weeks. I am a little freaked out that I'm losing my sight and may never complete my dream of doing artwork. This has spurred me to start it now; today. Actually, I decided to try to draw what this floater looks like to me as a start.

Thank you for your comments and I'm glad you're back posting again.

Gail
Volunteer Mentor

@gailb I have a floater that looks like a paramecium. I was going to take a walk this morning-missed that morning walk. Motivation is a massive word. I continue to say, "tomorrow". Missing my little grandson-life continually hurls curve balls in my direction. I just keep dodging them. I am one that when in doubt...do nothing. In search of something. Once I decide what I am seeking it may help. I do know I cannot make things happen. Be patient.
Take care.

@parus

I understand.

Gail
Volunteer Mentor

You have found your way to paint again, what a fascinating thing that you are painting what floaters look like. Good luck and please share what you will be painting next.