Hello @mscosette Nice to e-meet you here on Connect! I am Scott and I came to connect out of a need to battle the isolation caused by my role as a primary caregiver for my spouse for over 14 years. I found and loved Connect for a variety of reasons, but one was that I could connect (pun intended) at anytime! This helped me a lot knowing this avenue to share was always available!
The more I posted on Connect the more I realized there were many additional folks traveling the same path I was and it felt good to share with them. Plus I have found Connect to be an open, accepting, and listening community.
As I struggled I found two things, which helped me. One was I kept a running list of things I wanted to do. From the smallest (clean out the kitchen junk drawer) to clean the garage and from iron the clothes on the chair to write a note to an old friend. I pledged to do at least one thing on the list a day AND when marked it off, I never did so without adding something on the list, which I felt would be a fun thing to do as a reward of sorts. Soon my list was just as many fun things to do as 'chores'. I still do this!
The second was I taped up a quote at my desk. It says "Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying 'I will try again tomorrow'". It helps me remember my goals don't always need to be to move a mountain!
Courage, strength, and peace!
Thankful our goals do not need to move mountains. I am a list person and I find satisfaction in crossing something off of my list-yes, a goal oriented person who struggles daily with major depression. I enjoy drawing and painting when I can push through the gray fog. the hardest thing is picking up the paint brush. Something I enjoy so much seems daunting and I would say this is the depression weighing me down. Hard to battle my way through even though I feel better when I do.
I am sad you are struggling with this illness too.