48 years breathing, 30 years same house...had 2 business I did tree climbing and removal for 8-10 , then when computers got popular I changed to computer repair.
My dads brother got cancer but caught it early and beat it, My dad got cancer when I was as like 10 he was 32 and died at 36 after brutal battle. But was awesome enough to buy me a Commodore 64 when I was 9.....so I was coding “basic” at the age of 10 to this day I thankem in my head for seeing that in me before he died...now if I wasn’t so banged up and especially taking opiates, I could fix ANY COMPUTER, ANY PROBLEM, I can do it all!!! Networking, web design, hardware software , database programming, Visual Basic, active server pages, Java, whatever, but with opiat s and pain and stress I’m USELESS
getting back...
Mother married the furniture salesman a few months later and threw me in military boarding Schools. (Were so bad they would make penn state and jerry Sandusky seem like a tea party!!
Because I look so much like my father.

Despite all that I managed to live pretty decent all alone, payin the mortgage, etc..
Then I was rear ended at a dead light. Between the blown discs to my neck and back, I also have advanced osteoarthritis with fissuring in both hips, spinal stenosis , nerve damage, carpal in both hands. Other physical issues, and depression, real bad anxiety.
So I have been mentally screwed forever managed to function for a long time until was too much after getting rear ended , living alone my whole life, being beat down physicallly and mentally by no fault of my own...but because weed wasn’t legal..I had to take benzos, opiates, antidepressants anti- inflammatory..internal meds type
2 diabetes, hypertension, fear of going out, everything escalated with PHARMACEUTICALS.....but now that I have a medical marijuana card I got myself back!!
Insurance will pay $8,000 for evzio for me “just in case” once again saw that I said screw this..:.they will pay for me to do opiates, carry a $8,000 bandaid which when living alone is useless, so i never even on my worst opiate days I never load up before bed....you could die..so I’d rather wake up with a lil detox than not t waking up. But my point being pot is going to save my life, but is going to break me financially!!!
Just got so sick of that cycle in the last 8 years I’ve lost so many friends, family to opiate crap.....
Yet I have lifelong friends that wake up, smoke a lil sativa, work hard daily come home smoke a lil indica and cbd for sleep, pain, etc... and they do fine.
I was always scared to break the law because if I get arrested, who would watch my house, pay my bills, run my business etc... b
THANK GOD THAT THE “GARDEN STATE” is Les living up to its reputation, now we need INSURANCE TO PAY FOR ANLITTLE WEED , instead of A TON OF OPIATE

We fight fire with fire,
We fight violence and war with violence and war
We fight cancer with the tumors own cancer cells,
So we should FIGHT THE WAR ON synthetic DRUGS WITH natural ones that god and especially Mother Nature provided us!!!!
And with my crappy genetics and after real bad quality of “opiate life” recently....at least I didn’t get cancer yet...so maybe it was the weed I smoked as a teen to calm myself, then had to stop in order to be a legit adult, and now it has circled right back to pot...:that shit saved my life, mentally, physically, physiologically,

I’ve done a life study dude....a lifetime of being denied the medicine that could’ve avoided all this stuff in the first place!! I probably have emails older than you.

And that message you wrote just looks like a generic message of pasted text with a couple changes with a little personalization. So if I might ask of you....try “one more time with FEELING”