First of all...big hugs and I hope you find relief. It sounds like it has been a long and frustrating journey for you. I would strongly advise you to talk with your doctor about how to safely decrease your medication. I went through withdrawals myself because I was stubborn...not safe and not worth it. I’m not sure what state you are in, but in MN medical THC as well as the CBD are legal. My doctor gave me a certificate and I paid all the fees to be certified to buy and carry. After months of trying every different level of THC and CBD...I gave up. It didn’t work and it was very expensive. I do know quite a few people that have had success with CBD oil though....hopefully you are one of them. I suggest finding a good quality oil. Talk with you doctor about adding it to the regime your on now....hopefully in time you will be able to use less medication.