@tonj657716, I can imagine that you feel miserable. When you go for your consult on Sept 18, let your doctor know that you're scared and that you've been suffering from depression, anxiety and panic attacks. Your team can help you get the support you need to see this through. You're not alone. Perhaps @mrector @kmart and @pegorr can share some of their experiences with you.

While we wait for others to join the conversation, You might like to read this conversation.
- Life: How do you not let a brain tumor take over your life? https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/life/

Is your upcoming appointment a consult for surgery?