Totally understand. My pain management /rehab doctor is retiring and I use behavioral--mediation---tapping, i.e., chiropractic, botox for cervical dystonia, TENS, Voltaren gels, Teracin pain patch 0ne a day, daily exercises from PT and chiropractor, then Topamax an anti-seizure, as needed Prednisone for anti-inflammation, Valium for muscle spasms low dosage, and Morphine that I use 1-3/day depending upon how/what I am doing/feeling. There basically no doctors here anymore only to do procedures of which I have been through the gammat with nothing but more pain and getting hospitalized for a week due to injecting near my spinal cord, nicking my cord leaking spinal fluid. No more will I get those procedures that did nothing but hurt and NO pumps or stimulators. I have arachnoiditis already. My cervical and lumbar fusions have enough problems going on and the myofascial pain syndrome plus fibromyalgia. The doctors don't like narcotics even though it helps but they'll push high dosage anti-seizure meds like neurontin of which I have seen so many side effects and people feeling horrible on. Three times I had to get off on when my dosage increased so NO MORE! Has has many as morphine but no reversal agent that I know of.I have met and corresponded to many like me and who you read about, we are the ones suffering due to abusers. We have been responsible, never asked for out meds early, never needed an increase and use all the modalities listed above! Doesn't matter we are all grouped in and try to make us feel even worse than we already do.