Dear happy. .. I love that you gave yourself the name as an affirmation of what you desire. I just read the posts here and my random thoughts of consciousness include: we people are so unique, like snowflakes, and we just can't be like the next snowflake. I personally think that we people can't really force ourselves to act or think or feel a specific way. The word force is the operative word here. I think we can encourage and invite and try hard to change what we want/hope to change. ..but I think that the tough issues like mental health stuff require help from others. Like professionals. .. Like Psychiatrists who are capable of prescribing meds that address body, mind and spirit and emotions! And competent, caring therapists who work hand- in-hand with psychiatrists. More follows.