@daniellemarie I can only imagine how difficult this must be. You have to summon up as much strength as you can to move on and to be there for your remaining children. I know that's much easier said than done but I believe that if you manage to sort of fake it for a while that eventually it will pervade you and help to lighten your grief. I actually have tears in my eyes as I write this though because when I think about how I would feel at the loss of either my son or daughter, I know it would be unbearable.
You are going to really have to put a lot of effort in to moving on so your other children get the best of you too.
Please stay in touch and let us know how you are doing. I will be praying for you.
JK