I am here - went to bed before 10 got up after 10 still muddled confused like said trying not to be bitter, angry - i got to keep it together for myself and for Paul and carry on - At least I got to be there for her as I promised Russ even tho the daughter took that right from me jut after he died so I "feel good" about all thats went down - just did not expect it so soon after I have cried - not in the presence of the daughter - but alone - with some of the nursing staff at nursing home - in fact 3 of the nurses (LPN's) are till there after 14 years 2 started as aides/CNA and all got to see her but one he was out on sick leave.