I do what I can as I can when it gets to much i just walk away either for a nap or to work on here or bed for the night;
I love genealogy so i come in here and hide behind what one person dub the"Dead peoples Society" years ago friends grandson went to school and told his teacher that about me and she laughed as she knew what I done... its the waiting for things to click so progress can be made...

Like said clean, pack as boxes come available so that won't be all last minute there is couple of areas - the china hutch, the closet and kitchen that will have to be done at last minute... and if not will have to find way to re-organize boxes as not unpacking all are labeled so know where came from and whats in in a board sense... if from in here that's questionable... but tried to by systematic about how i packed things up and away have had to do it a couple times when the roof leaked and they are still packed away for the eventual surprise "Oh i forgot I had that"... some probably should of tossed but i have collected glassware and other collectibles over the years and not about yet ready to give up but probably should...

Given time i know it will all work out it will be nice to have space other than a mobile home if it is meant to be if not will have to make the best of it here for a while longer...

I still have my hopes and dreams and won't let them go keeps me going...

I just have to see this through and make the best of today and tomorrow.

I have wondered what it would of been if I had not forced the issue of the chest x-ray last September but I was not expecting lung cancer for him it was "silent heart attacks" as he went through that in 2007 and had a stent placed his dad carried him out and I drove to the ER at top speed and made it just in time if we had called an ambulance and waited for it to come 14+ miles...

I know I made the best choice in IU Medical/Simon Cancer center than messing around up here with the son... just wish had gotten his father down to IU Medical but did not IU Methodist was the start but it was just to late and regret that but it was inevitable what the out come would be since he was not making red blood cells and transfusions were only a "stop gap measure" and one day would fail... it just came a little sooner than expected would of liked him to be around longer and seen all this accomplished but it was not meant to be... I am at peace with that...

Nothing in this life is guaranteed and the best plans do go astray.... we just have to dust ourselves off and carry on the best we can.