@mar1222

Your feelings are understandable. As you know, we all grieve differently. The grief your parents feel as they have lost a son, will be different from yours because you lost a brother and also different from your son, because he has lost an uncle. These are all different relationships and therefore have different grief responses.

Something that might be helpful, would be to share some thoughts about your brother. You can either use this discussion forum if you are comfortable doing so, or you can jot down notes of remembrance about your brother. If you need some help, pull out some pictures of your brother, at different ages, and just look and remember.

Since many people, in the midst of grief, don't have the energy to fill a page of a journal what I've often suggested is to take some 3 X 5 index cards and each day write down some memory of the loved on who has died, it only has to be a sentence or two. It can be an experience you shared together or perhaps an irritating habit he had - you can write down his strengths, something you would like to share with him if he were alive, or perhaps just a message that you miss him. Then just keep these index cards in a place where you can pull them out and read them later on.

Writing can be very therapeutic. Would you like to give it a try?

Teresa