Hello @mar1222 and thank you for sharing your situation. Loss is always hard, what helped me most was my faith and knowing that this was the proper order of things in order for us all to be reunited later. Next I learned the 5 phases of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Next I had to learn to assess how I was an what stage I was in, then I researched ways to cope and move beyond my current stage. I moved to depression very quickly and dealt with that by "suiting up and showing up". I made sure to complete basics every day: eat, sleep, shower, dress. My secondary list included basics that need to be done on a regular basis: go to work, do laundry, cook, clean the kitchen, clean the bathroom, hang up or fold my clothes, clean the floors, etc. After doing that for a while I realized that "faking it until I made it" was working and I spent less time each day in mourning and feeling sorry for myself.

Just remember that everyone moves at their own pace. Just because someone else has moved on does not mean yu are ready to, just keep taking care of what you need to and do what you can to keep living. Living means having fun. It is okay for you to laugh and enjoy your favorite things. Keep coming back. We have all been through our own grief.