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Hi @muppey -- I'm glad you are able to share your feelings. I'm guessing it's not an easy thing for men or women to do. I struggle with it but when I have had to share when I'm hurting I've always been blessed with a friend who is willing to listen. I think I can only remember a few times when my wife and I were struggling with a pre-teenager with mental health issues and not knowing what to do. I can remember being consumed with all sorts of emotions and probably the first time I had ever contemplated suicide. It was the same for my wife until we found a support group and a safe place to share our greatest fears only to find out we were not alone. That was a long time ago before the Internet. Now days I think that we have the ability to share our feelings here on Connect and others that are not quite there yet can read and maybe find a level of understanding and comfort that may help them. Which hopefully will snowball so that we can reach folks in need of help and understanding.

Wishing for peace and strength for all...

John

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johnbishop, Ha, those two words are triggers for me don't you know? Just kidding but I almost passed you by because of those two names together. In the course of events...Jon is my wife's sons name and he, I thought was my friend. When my wife just disappeared on Feb 1 he drove up here, from 150 miles away, where Mary went, that same day and with Mary's girlfriend, also part of the plan against me, they knocked on my door and by this time I'd been hit with three other events all in the span of a few hours. Anyway I opened the door and Traci barged past me and Jon took up a guard positon at my door, like he was what, an asshole. Anyway I went back to the bedroom and gave Traci Mary's medicine and she stuffed it in the bag. They grabbed a suitcase and our little dog and left. Guess I could have had them arrested but I'm not vindictive. I was in shock by that time so couldn't resist or really say anything. Good friends huh.
Now that bishop word. Much dislike which could lead into much hatred. The church Mary rejoined has a whole series of elders, priests, presidents, other jerks and a Bishop in each ward. No woman in that church, from out of Salt Lake City, does anything so drastic as divorce without getting the bishops approval and encouragement as I will not be part of that cult. Their is also the problem of Mary's 1st x, Steve L., who is an ordained Melchizedek priest in the cult. Understand that these men have authority over the women. Anyway it's bizarre but he'd show up at parties and was able to talk to Mary and finally able to seduce her into leaving me. I have plenty of evidence of this, and I've visited their Temples and Wards. They are nuts.
Keep your name I was mostly, but not completely, kidding as to the trigger words. Mary could not stand me saying something like "I'm going to hang out." That's because her son hung himself in 1996 on Easter Sunday, which is coming up and I know she's crying.
Call me Mr. Clueless but I was completely blind sided by all this. Use to tell Mary that Paula was the meanest woman I'd ever been with or meet. Now I'm changing that and dear, sweet Mary comes up 1st in mean. If she finds out she'll be upset but I'm not telling.
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@muppey -- Ouch! Hate it when my name is a trigger word. You must mean that famous John Bishop that is a comedian and from the U.K. In my younger pre-married days I was blind sided by a "girl" friend my sister hooked me up with after I had joined the Navy and was home for leave. Was just getting to really like her and had a date with her to go bowling when she asked if a friend could join us. Like a dummy I said you bet. Her friend met her at the bowling alley and much to my surprise it was her real boy friend. I think they thought I was around to pay for the fun. Worked out for me though. She got to ride home with him and he got to pay for the bowling after I left. Then 4 years later I met the love of my life on a Greyhound bus, we ended up getting married about 6 months later and are now close to celebrating our 53 year anniversary in three months. Not that we haven't had our moments but I learned those two words that fit almost every situation - yes dear. She's in much better health than I am so I am extra nice nowadays because I know that crabby old men get to go to the nursing home when us old nice guys may be fortunate enough to have a live in care giver. ☺

Can't believe it's only Monday!

John

Hi John, made me laugh. We can all use a good laugh now and then or more often. I don't no that we would have made it to 50 but it's funny, a long time ago she said something which just stuck in my mind, I know why she said it and I would have granted her request. Mary said, "I get to go first!" She didn't want to be alone. Can't say that I blame her, it sucks. Just have to man up I guess. Not much else I can do. Get something going as soon as my head clears, been maybe 50 days now not that I'm counting, just seems that way. I fast tracked the divorce so I guess that's why I count, don't know for sure. She certainly went first but I wasn't thinking that way. Oh well. Time.
I want to ask the girls a question on female peculiars. Why does Mary call me "sweetheart" on the phone? Why did she want to rush up and hug me when she came to pick up her furniture and clothes? Twenty years ago this Oct 2 Mary placed a window sticker on our front door window. I read the rules of divorce does and don't and they said take down pictures and memories so you don't sit there pining. Anyway, I pulled the plastic sticker off but the paint on it stuck to the plexi glass window and if I tried to scrap it the window would look junky so I left the words "just married' on the window but covered them up with a blue high lighter I had. A few days later I looked and the window was clean and "just married' was showing bright and the window was clean, unlike the other windows. Why do women do that kind of thing? I know Mary did that because I know who's been in my house. The sticker was inside.
Hey John, got any clues you can throw me I'll take them. Not midnight yet so I'll be up a while, my whole way has changed and I don't like it...yet. Hah!

Woman can confuse men with a little wiggle and do other things that baffle us. Nothing mean here just wondering.