I am so sorry for your loss. Recalling from my own experiences.....it has been such a short time since your mother passed, and you can expect that the grieving is intense right now. Regrets are also not unusual either, but remember that we are all human and have made mistakes and though we can't go back and change most things, we absolutely can move forward and live "this new day". It has been many years since my husband passed away at a young age and I still miss him. The "sharp" pain of loss isn't there anymore, but a degree of sorrow stays with me, and I am sure it always will. Within a short time after his death I made a determined decision to go back to work, see family/friends, and just keep myself involved. This wasn't easy to do as I really didn't have it in my heart to even leave my house - but I did, and for me it proved to be the best therapy to help get through a heart-breaking and life-changing loss. My thoughts are with you....