Well, welcome! I just want to say up front that this is going to positively affect your life. The support you will get is amazing and the understanding and experiences you've had will make a difference to someone in this forum. Just being brave enough to start sharing is a huge step and for me, the hardest part. Now that you've shared, waited for a negative response but got only support (been there, done that), doesn't it help to finally be able to just get it out? I was afraid, just waiting, and have found a strength I didn't know I had, because you don't get judged here. Please stay, and keep talking. You will make a difference, someone else may just need that bit of encouragement. I hope things get better for you. It's a hard road but stay with it and don't give up on yourself!
Vicky