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Gynecologic Cancers | Last Active: Dec 11, 2023 | Replies (116)Comment receiving replies
I'm struggling. I suppose I slipped back into wonder woman mode and then just plain got knocked back down. I've been trying desperately to stay strong and positive but the last couple of days have just done me in. I have brain fog like never before in my life, can't stay organized and constantly misplace things. Monday will probably be a nightmare for my care team. I have the feeling a massive meltdown is just around the corner. Rocky had to go home for the weekend to deal with a malfunction in the heating system at home so my foundation is extra shaky. My poor service dog is getting a workout this weekend. Tears are always ready to bust loose and every side effect I've avoided, or ignored, is chasing me around. I haven't felt like this for weeks and now feel like it's falling apart.
Is this normal or am I truly loosing g my mind?
Vicky
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Rosemary,
Thank you for your kind reassurance. I am just so out of sorts and those strong arms will be back today to put my world right again. I'm just trying to hold on!
Just gonna cuddle my dog and wait on him to get here!
Vicky
@vsinn2000, Vicky,I see a beautiful image in my mind. And I can feel the love.
Rosemary
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@vsinn2000, Vicky, I just read your post, and I want to tell you that you are indeed normal and not loosing your mind.
I am a organ transplant recipient and I have experienced what you are feeling. I want to say that none of us can be wonder woman all the time, even though we try and think we should be. Don't be hard on yourself. And don't plan to do anything, except follow any medical directions and simply focus on 'breath in, breath out". Forget the organization, and just pile the things you need regularly in a convenient place. Like you, my husband was my caregiver, and we were away from home. I can imagine your emptiness without him at your side temporarily.
And it is okay to cry! I think of a good cry as a stress relief, not as a failure or giving up. I cried a lot. My husband cried, too. And people always told me how brave I was - well that is not true.
Teresa has already given you good advice.
God bless you, your husband, and your service dog.
Rosemary