I have noticed that once a depressed or anxious person is diagnosed, they never get the ptoper attention paid to them when they go to a doctor for a illness. They just say well, its your depression. Its like a depressed person can never get sick. As a result, alot of depressed and anxious people avoid going to a doctor for treatment when they should.

I usually do well in receiving attention when visiting a doctor by bringing two copies of a check list (one I can read aloud and a copy that I present to the doctor.) As we discuss each item I check it off the list, or make a note about what I am told and also ask the doctor to write out his advice. I also request a printout of the visit or so I can go over the recommendations that the doctor puts into the computer. You would be surprised at the respectful attention that I receive from both my primary care doctor and the specialists that I see. In today's medical climate one has to be prepared and proactive!

Anyone receiving "special" attention must have made large donations, hold a high place in society, have lawyers/politicians in the family and in today's medical climate one better be prepared to prepay or not see a doctor. Or maybe there are some doctors that still own their own practice and can make their own rules. Walk into to a doctor well-prepared the info does not even get past the nurse or even on the laptop. My chart is still a mess. Full of medications I do not even take/a diagnosis that is not mine...things do not get transcribed or incorrectly.
Only way most folks get respect is if there is something in it for the other person. Money talks in most circles. Doctors in private practice can pick and choose.
From the society I live in...the world where the only thing that is seen on the chart is depression.
The world I live in people are disposable and even those that do not have depression. Money is all that matters.

I'm so sorry that your experiences have been so bad that your entire view of the medical profession is tainted. And I don't blame you one bit. It's difficult to swallow the fact that we have to watch out for ourselves but are stymied by miscommunications and inter company politics. We unfortunately have to take control, like ladybug said. I have records of everything, I take lists to the doctor and last lab reports or tests that they may not have gotten copies of. We have to demand that if we only get 15 minutes then we damn well better get the best care and that it is all up to date. I am hoping that you can seek help to get your records of everything and straighten out your files so that they are up-to-date. And please, not matter what society you live in, you have to take charge by demanding, because if you don't then it will stay the same.

@ladybugmg

Just good advice! I agree that a prepared patient will generally get treated with respect. If you come into the office organized with a detailed plan for what you want to discuss you will receive a more attention.

Doctors are scientifically minded folks who have a lot of respect for organized individuals who present their case in a thoughtful, organized and respectful manner.

I appreciate that reminder.

Teresa

@hopeful33250 How is it this did not work for me-me thinketh some scientifically minded folks are intimidated by thus and become flustered when I presented in an organized manner. I am in search of another PCP the best ones are not taking any new patients. Where I am located I enter into a maze of examination rooms and honestly feel like a rat in search of cheese that is edible. I am striving to keep a sense of humor. This endeavor is exhausting. I know many experiencing the same so it is not just me. I would like to believe that all are doing the best they know how in this technological maze. It terrifies me to go to a medical facility. Something about this is not healthy. I have never experienced this type of thing in the past. Maybe it is my age. It must be-it has to be me.

@parus
Reading your posts is sometimes painful for me. This is not a criticism of you; I think it's because I fully feel how discouraged you are at times. I would like to lighten your load, but I know I can't do that for you. I was once where you seem to be, and I want you to know there is hope and help out there. I remind myself often that, "What you see Gail is what you get." I know that sounds trite, but it is true.

I don't think anyone can see the good and positive in others until we also see it in ourselves. I also think it's very difficult to go from a life position of depression and "I'm not OK, and everyone else is not OK" to the next step forward. That step involves being able to see that other people are OK (not everyone but some people) so those people may be able to help you, i.e., "I'm not OK, but you are OK." This is a tremendously helpful step forward in our search for relief from the pain of seemingly never ending depression. It's so hard because it means we must make ourselves vulnerable. You are doing that here on line, and that is so important. After that step, we must be able to see that we are worthy of kindness, love and caring. At that point life begins to look up.

I had to finally begin taking antidepressants after many years of therapy, support groups, meetings and learning what I could do to help myself get better. I was diagnosed with PTSD from my childhood and early adulthood, which left me fearful of everything and depressed. I was a deeply wounded person. I had many panic attacks and extreme anxiety with anything or anyone new or unknown to me. I wanted to live a better life so I worked hard to know myself and learn about my internal emotional geography. I was dead set against medication so I only began it as a last resort about 6 years ago. I'm 69! I had exhausted all the therapy and techniques to change, and they had a tremendously positive impact on my life, but I still had anxiety and depression that was deepening with age. That led me to ask for an antidepressant finally. I accidentally ended up with the right one for me. It was hard titrating onto the Citalopram at first, but I could feel a little stirring of excitement and happiness begin after 2 weeks. I knew it was going to work at that point. I am so happy that I found the help I needed to free me from my lifelong anxiety and fear. I'm sure I have a chemical imbalance that had kept me in my fear/depression prison all my life.

I encourage you to find a doctor or healthcare team you can trust and ask for genetic tests to determine what antidepressant will work for you. Ask friends or family members who they would recommend as a great physician. When you have the new physician ask them to order the genetic tests for antidepressants, and recommend a good therapist who can do talk therapy. You deserve to be happy Parus! You have to believe that before you can once again take the steps to make it so. Even if you've tried this in the past, do it again. Things change over time. Doctors who have messed up charts and information are not good and caring docs. You need to find one who is caring. You sound like you are a very powerful woman Parus, perhaps more powerful than you realize.

Warm regards,
Gail
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@gailb I am sorry I have caused you or anyone else pain. No one here needs/wants more pain.
I realize I likely live in an entirely different world than some and a better one than others. Hospitals/doctors are all now in large groups and rely on a laptop. It is not their fault they have learned to believe what they see on their magic machines. They do not have time for talk or to even try to straighten out mistakes in charts and oft times it has now become potluck as to whom one may see even though one has a PCP. Even being properly assertive can result in expulsion. again, not their fault, it is the system. It is a mess and it is not because of social status-or is it? I once was a hard working woman, knowledgeable, well-educated, positive social skills, helpful/caring. None of this is in their holy grail and it out not to matter I am still all of these things only can no longer use these skills due to health issues. It is NOT the depression that keeps me from being a "useful" member of society. Gee, when a pain specialist tells me to walk, a therapist says there is nothing she can do because my physical pain is worsening my depression.
The depression has gotten much worse because I can no longer be of value in a materialistic world. Yes, I have had depression since childhood and I once could deal with it and see good in myself and others.
You see, the things I need are no longer obtainable. I have given up because of physical disabilities.
I asked about genetic testing-this I will not do again. I can no longer drive a long distance.
I read your words and I am not attacking you personally. You have much to be thankful for in finding a team of professionals that do take the time and care. I am hopeful your suggestions will help another. Another member mentioned we all live in different worlds and have different family histories. I am thankful for the time that others take to be supportive. I too have read things that hurt because I cannot fix things. I so want others to be happy and spent my life pleasing others and being grateful for the smiles I could bring. The grocery store is the best I can do. You see, I did this to myself by always striving to please others. I am angry with myself and this is a hard one. If I were rich I would now be called eccentric because I am afraid of being hurt again.
If I am sounding bitter about the past...I was trained to be a people pleasing child with a mother that could never be pleased. No, I am not still trying to please the woman giving me life. I like to help others and feel I no longer have anything to give.
I do have a grandson and enjoy him more than I can say in words. Everyone is busy and I am thankful I did get to see his daddy (my son) for a few minutes this past Sunday. My son filled me in with the small amount of time he was allowed. I cried after they left because my grandson wanted to stay with me and there wasn't time (for grandma's red bag) and his mommy could not be reached to ask her permission. It is always the children who pay the price 🙁 I can no longer go there for now-it is not personal.
Okay, now to post or not to post????
Reassuring to know it can be deleted by the upper echelon if need be.
Maybe it will be of value to another.
BTW, I do live in the US.

I worked in Health Care for over 40 years. It was better then but the tools they use are much better ! However the health care system has become so complicated that it can be very discouraging ! There are some good Doctors out there keep trying, it could help you life a lot !

@gailb,@parus

I am so sorry what you both are going through. It hurts my heart for what you and others are going through and this is the only way I know to try and help.

I cannot say I really know what you are going through because we all are different. Being physically, mentally, and sexually abused at a young age and knowing your brothers, sisters, mother was going through the same thing took it's toll on me mentally. I am 57 and deal with this secret all the time. I have GAD, MDD, and Anxiety, Panic attacks, etc. All the things that come with depression and more things that it has caused. I dealt with it the best I knew how as a child and a adult. That is all we can do. Try to deal with it and hope something will help us. I am not proud of how I dealt with it. So I did the best I could. I learned after being older however that just because I did not beat my children or other things, I lacked loving them the way I should have. I wrapped myself up in work not to think of my abuse but in the mean time not thinking of what I should have been doing with them. I don't think I let them know how much I loved them. I can't remember if I told them enough or not. thank God they are both good adults. No drugs or alcohol problems and they both work.

Now to get to the part we are all different on how we handle things. My siblings and I are close. We all love each other and we help people if we can. The only hate I felt is for the person who did this to us. One handles the abuse until she drinks too much then all men are dogs and becomes verbally violent. She is a hard worker and always have been. She gives to those in need. The other drinks all the time, did drugs, and wanted revenge all the time, could be abusive at a times. He could not hold down a job. He helps the people he can that need it. The other handles it like I do but better. She is a hard worker also. She gives to people in need. As the years went by for me I dealt with it by drinking sometimes but mostly what helped, which might sound out of sorts to some, is knowing that there are people out there who went through worse. I tell myself it could have been so much worse than what we went through. There is always questions as to why? Why do people hurt others? How can they hurt their own children, wife, husband? Why? Why? Why?

What helps me now and makes me feel better is this grandchild I have been raising since she was 2 weeks old. She is almost 4 now. She was a gift from God. How do I know? It came to me in a dream that there will be a baby in our lives. Of course I dismissed it as being a silly dream but when it came true and when we took the picture in my dream I knew she was a gift from God. So the laughter and love she brings with her helps me so much with this depression. It still will come back when I become overly stress like happened when I joined here recently, but she helps pull me out of it.

I hope no one takes this in the wrong way. I am just trying to help someone, anyone. I hate to see, hear, people are hurting. I have not said much on here because I do see people who are hurting way more than I am. I feel all my problems are petty compared to most the people on here. I hope by telling this story it helps someone in some way.

God Bless,