could you depression be a mask partly for anger? Is there someone that deeply gets you angry? Try gently saying "Ouch that hurt" if someone offends you. You will get a response and you will feel better....pray...count your blessings...read happy books...or spy novel so intense you can not think anything else...try Daniel Silva...get hooked on a good book...drink hot tea...walk...rock...good luck and God Bless YOU whereever you are...